come-alive

Day 28: I Shall Believe

For me, the NaNo dust is beginning to settle.  The excitement and pressure of getting to 50k is gone, replaced now by the warm afterglow of success–although I keep pinching myself as I strive to remember that I still have another half a novel to complete.

And along with that excitement, other things have fled too.  Confidence, for one.  Some reflection and review has shown there is much work yet to be done on what I’ve already written, and that of course becomes and easy cause for pause. 

I suppose, though I spend most of my days with my head in the clouds, both literally and figuratively, I’ve never really been great at pressing the ‘I believe’ button.  I don’t know if it’s my upbringing or 20 years of military service which has made my outlook so pragmatic and unyielding, but I find I must see some shred of evidence–even proof sometimes–before the tenor of my outlook softens from the hardcore skeptic I am most of the time.

But boundless optimism is a prerequisite in this business, don’t you think?  How can one stick it out, month after month, year after year, writing in a quiet room, all alone (or mostly so), hoping one day someone will read your book and like it, if you aren’t optimistic?  It can’t be done.  So I’m learning to look on the bright side and–yet another tool in my toolbox!–to believe!  Yep, and it feels pretty good.

Less than 48 hours ’til this thing is over.  How you feeling?

P. S.  The Golden Eagle has added his voice to our Songfest.  Go check out his selection here!  Thanks Eagle!  😀